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Things are not always how they look

About ten years ago, when I was at my fattest, I really enjoyed life. I mean really. I socialised a lot, I had confidence in myself and I felt strong. I didn’t mind having my picture taken, I pretty much did whatever I wanted to do and I was happy. I wore what I wanted to wear and I would always look at myself in the mirror and think “Yeah, you look pretty good.”

Now, ten years later and 49lbs lighter, I am a completely different person. I can’t quite remember when my moment of realisation (more…)


If You are Scared of the Wolves, Stay out of the Forest

Russian proverb,

Meaning: “Fear is no excuse from [possibly risky but] necessary undertakings.

I was scared of going to the gym and getting fit. At the very beginning I wasn’t even scared of all the “Wolves” in the gym. I was initially scared of flying off the back of the treadmill or all the weights crashing to the floor around me. I was scared of tripping up on the way in or falling off an exercise bike with my foot still caught in the straps. I was scared of looking like a complete rookie and leaving puddles of sweat surrounding me. Christ,  I was even scared of (more…)

Life is Like a Soggy Pile of Leaves…

Not for everyone, mind you. Some people live extraordinary lives. Jetting off all over the world, exploring far flung places, discovering or inventing something outstanding, selflessly helping others, participating in exhilarating activities. For some, the love and warmth of family life prevents their leaves from becoming a pile of sogginess. That is just as admirable, if not more so! They have so little yet so much in their loving circle. Watching their children sleep and receiving that unconditional love from their brood. Being thankful for what they have and appreciating that even though their four year old insists that he didn’t pour the whole bottle of expensive body lotion down the toilet, their frustration will be short lived, and always replaced with a warm heart. They fret over their child being able to write her name before she starts school and lose sleep over the thought they might not be asked to help build a Lego rocket with the others. They are overcome with pride when their child gets top marks for spelling, or only fumbles their lines in the nativity once. Their Twitter, Facebook and Instagram feeds are full of proud moments in their family lives. They build their future around helping their offspring to be the best that they can possibly be. They plan family holidays and talk of saving for university. They have a future as a family, and one day will look forward to becoming Grandparents and going through the same, though to a slightly lesser extent, all over again. (more…)